God dammit. Let me emo at you for awhile, 'kay?


First off, how come making decisions about my own self is everyone else's job? Huh? Is that not the most stupid thing ever? Fucking is. I mean, being me, and being constantly in my internal mind, I would know more about it than anyone else, right? Right. Well, that's apparently not how is works for everyone else.

Second, is it fair to be mad at other people for something that I am the only participant in? Like, is it fair to be mad at them for calling it wrong and harmful? Because I don't care what they say, it's not hurting me. They don't understand, and they really, really can't.

Third, why the fuck can't I sleep? It's like, not coming. And it actually makes me a little pissed, 'cus I'm sick and all, and sleep would be great, but I can't. And now that I think about it, I don't even want to. What's up with that?

GOD, why can't I just decide what would make me happy, without being 'too young' to make that decision? Why, when I KNOW that it will help? People are just so stupid and backwards sometimes, I can't stand it.

/rant